A Boy named ME 5- the finale!

As the guards dragged him away he dint open his eyes, not even once to see where. They just dragged him and put him in a room and then a guy came in for investigation.

Investigator: Why did you cross all the barriers?? What did you want to accomplish?

Jack: Jane!

Invest: what?

Jack: Jane!

Invest: You are not making any sense and if you don’t answer my questions pro…

Jack: it’s my Jane, she is gone. I wanted to tell her how much I love her but it is not possible now.

Invest: How do I know if you are telling the truth?

Jack: I have no idea what so ever.

After about an hour of pointless conversation, they let him go.

The airport had started to crowd up but he felt lost. He felt alone in the crowd and demolished. He called up her number knowing that it was switched off just to try his luck. But little did he know that his luck had run all out. It was still dark outside and he started walking out. Out of the airport and had no idea where he was going. He was so struck that he dint care about the vehicles coming in front and even forgetting that he had brought a car to the airport. He felt paralyzed and he did not like it, not one bit. Finally he went to a bridge and looked down. Even the water looked dark to him. Without a second thought and with a last sigh he stood up on the fence and dived into the water. With a loud thud, he fell down from his bed rubbing his head in pain. He took the ring box and put it back in his pants.

He helped himself up and sat on the bed and he could still feel his moist eyes. Suddenly everything came rushing back to his head; it was a dream, a nightmare rather. He snatched the clock from the table it was still midnight and Jane had told that she wanted to tell him something. “Could the dream be true?” he started thinking. And as he kept thinking there was a knock on the door and he was not shocked or surprised to see her waiting outside. He awkwardly waved at her and she smiled back. He went and hugged her so tight and so long, as if he feared that he would never see her again. Well he was in that fear, a lot.

Before she could speak anything he kept his finger on her lips and signaled by shaking his heads asking her not to speak anything. She looked down but he pulled her closer and raised her head to see those beautiful eyes. “I am sorr...” as she started to speak again he kissed her and said, don’t be sorry Jane. Don’t be sorry for anything because it’s you who made me into a person this good. She dropped her head and started to move back but he held her hand and pulled her closer again and gave her a hug and said, “how about a dance Jane?” She shook her head slowly and he searched his pockets for his iPod, it was not there. He dint want to let her alone even for a moment so he asked her, “Which is the song that you would like to dance to?” She said any song was fine but after insisting she said, “one in a million by Miley Cyrus” He cleared his throat and said, “please sing along with me Jane because I don’t want to destroy the song entirely” she refused but after a while of convincing she accepted, they started singing and dancing and it was a melody indeed. Their voices synchronized so well that it was a treat to the ears. People from a few houses even came out to see what was happening. The song ended but still they kept dancing to the sound of the wind. The lights were off as it was the usual time to switch them off and it was an angel and a guy in moonlight.

After they finally stopped dancing, he asked her, “Do you want a ride with me?” without hesitation she shook her head meaning yes. He got his bike and they set off to a ride. And as they rode, he kept telling her the places they went to and the memories over there. When they passed a street which was entirely silent, he asked her, “do you remember this place, this was where you gave me a key chain” many memories like this he narrated to her as they went on. Finally they came back to the same place and finally came to a stop. She was in tears and said, “I have to go jack, please its already hard enough” He said, “Jane you don’t have to go. No matter what happens we can sort it out. So please don’t give up on me” she said it was not about him, and that it was her. Even then he told her to listen to him for a moment. “I am not going to bore you with a speech of what love is Jane, nor am I going to make you listen to some boring speech. All I want to say is that I love you more than anyone can love any other girl. If you think that this is the thing that all guys say to their lovers, let it be and I don’t care about others. It’s you I love and there is something I want you to know. I know that you are the one for me.” He touched her hands and stroked her hair. She said, “I love you too, more than anything in this world but it won’t work out. I know it and I am scared, scared that I would hurt you more. Scared that I would hurt myself more and end up hurting millions more. I just...” he interrupted,” shhhh shh Jane. You are not alone everyone is alone and scared. I am with you and I want to be with you forever.”

Saying this he went on one knee and opened the ring box and said, “Jane my dear I want to be with you for ever and love you, will you please marry me and be my wife so that I would have the most gorgeous girl with me for ever?” She was in disbelief that he asked her to marry him. She kept shaking her head and crying and he was still on one knee with the ring outstretched, waiting for her answer. She was not able to accept that he loved her so much. Not able to remove the belief that she wanted to finish it here but it starts up at the very same place. She was scared for even a week but he asked her a lifetime. Was this all right? She was not able to come up with an answer and everything seemed so incomplete and uncertain. Crying deeply she turned towards him and decided to say no but as she saw him, she saw his bright face, sleepy eyes, and a smile on his lips. She knew he had the fear that she may say no but still he smiled. She was confused but not as much as she was before. She went to him and made up her mind. She said, “Jack i don’t know what I should say. Because all of this just seems like a dream” jack said, “If this is a dream Jane, then I will miss you a lot when I wake up” She smiled and cried at the same time, she said “my answer is yes jack, yes” He placed the ring on her small ring finger but it was too big for the finger. Jack said, “strange, this perfectly fitted Amy’s finger, are you both not the same size?” She was standing there staring at him, she said, “WHAT?? AMY???” jack responded, “so easy to get you girls jealous” and smiled. She started chasing him and after a while they hugged each other and went into his house. She decided to end it there but that’s where it started.

You always know when someone becomes close to you and a friend to you, but when you start loving someone? You never know that. It’s not a bargain, its life.

A Boy named ME 4

As she started to delete them she saw something that clouded her completely. It was a handkerchief he had gifted her. It was written “My love forever and eveR”. She opened her bag and started searching for the kerchief. She was not able to find it and was panicked she checked in all the places around her, the way she came, the place she was sitting, everywhere. But she was not able to find it, as she started getting tears she wiped her face with something and that made her smile. It was right there in her hand, it was in a fourfold. With the smile slowly fading away she opened it and saw the words “Reve dna reve rof evol yM”. Then she turned it around and it was “My love forever and eveR”.
After a really long session of sitting idle in his bed, he drank some water again. His face was sweaty and he was staring constantly at their photo. He wiped his forehead and then his memory took a leap and there he was immersed into his thoughts again. It was their first official outing as a couple in a garden restaurant. It was a candle light dinner on a beautiful full moon day. She saw a leaf on their table with a drop of water on it. She took it on her hand and kissed it and the dew was sucked into her lips. He dint ask her anything still she said, “I know it’s crazy but I kind of get a feeling that a dew drop on a leaf is the most peaceful view. And I try to absorb that peacefulness into me”. He smiled and kept his lips on her hand and then all of a sudden he went on one knee and said, “All my life Jane, I have been waiting for this moment. I knew someone would prove me wrong. Because when I said moon was the most beautiful thing I ever saw, I knew I was right. But the moment I saw you I took that back. And now you have proven me wrong”
She just gave a sweet smile and opened her bag and gave him a sheet of blue paper. He took it from her and opened it. It was a letter in which she had explained how much she loved him and that she had been in love with him for a long time. All of a sudden the glass broke and water spilt all over him. He snapped out of it and saw the glass of water slipped from his hand, shattered on the ground. Wild ideas were created in his mind on seeing the broken glass shards. He took one shard in his hand and then thought of hurting himself, later he dropped it and then cleared the mess over there and again drowned back into his memories.
On her 21’st birthday he gave her 21 letters that said how much he loved her and a keychain along with that which had a little red colored heart in the middle with a rotating ring around it. All colored sheets just like the one she gave him earlier. She was in love with those and she would read it at least twice a day. She then safely hid it under her bed in her room stacked, as a heap of colorful papers stacked up. Whenever she felt low, she would read them and then keep them safely in the same place. Voices echoed in his head and there were a million voices at a time. It all was so fast and he was not able to handle it, as though someone was choking him, someone hitting him right in the gut, someone pulling him closer and closer to death. Despite all this he just wanted that someone, and wanted it to be her. With a deep sigh he opened the window in his house and looked at the moon. And immediately he stood up with a rush and then put on his jacket and ran down.
It was time for her flight and she was getting ready with two heavy things, a heavy luggage and a heavier heart. There was one hand bag and a big suitcase. As she was going she turned back to see someone running towards her. She hoped every bit that it should be him; it was him, only it was her perfect imagination. As he came nearer he faded away. She dint wait to feel bad and pushed through the security area in the airport. She stood near the ticketing area, got her seats in her ticket, she was asked to sign, she immediately took out the pen in her bag and signed it and turned back and stared at the pen. On the first valentine’s day of their relationship, he sneaked up on her from behind and covered her eyes. He wished her a happy valentine’s day and gave a very beautiful pen. Silver pen reflecting almost all the light it got. A voice faded in “excuse me, ma’am. Ma’am kindly move…” She snapped back to reality and she was still standing in the line. She looked around and apologized and went to the seats. It was an empty airport and she along with some other people in the waiting line, were some of the people in the airport. She took her seat and her flight was in forty five minutes.
Jack, riding his car at a devils pace reached the airport in a matter of minutes. He sprinted into the airport and rushed to the check-in area. He saw the charts for a moment and saw the flight, it was at the third gate in fifteen minutes. He jumped across the barriers and started running without thinking about anything. The guards raised an alarm and started chasing him but he was really fast and there was a good one minute gap between them. As he scanned through the area he spotted her, a girl with a white dress in the counter. HE dashed towards her and kept his hands on her shoulder and said “Jane, please don’t leave me I….” and he fell silent. She said,” pardon??” it was some other girl.

A Boy named ME - 3

Her flight was not for another three hours. She did not know what she was doing or why she was doing it, she knew deep inside that she did not want it to happen. She walked slowly but suddenly tripped. Out of nowhere, someone held her by her hips. It was him, he helped her up and they were face to face. Looking at each other’s eyes they came closer and then she suddenly snapped back to reality. She was standing in the same spot and knew it would never happen after all that she had done. Without waiting to wipe her tears she looked back once, it was misty, she started to walk again.

He reached home and just sat on his bed remembering their times together. All the laughter, cries pain and the joy. He dint want to let her go but he remembered something she said, “even if you don’t want to let me go Jackie, I have to go. We both are holding on to something. That something is us and if one of us leaves, that means the other is holding on to nothing.” He wanted her back and he knew he wanted to do something to get her back, anything for that matter. The problem was he dint know what he had to do.

It seemed like just now that they both got into a relationship. Two years had passed since then. He started thinking about the things that happened back then. It was like a flash back. Two years before they both hardly knew each other. It was one small incident that made them meet. His memories went back to that very moment when they first met. It was Christmas party near his house. It was a colony party so people from the entire locality were there. He was there enjoying his drink with his friends. That was where he first saw her. He felt a wind in his hair all of a sudden and turned to look what’s happening. To his surprise he was so damn close to the pedestral fan, that his eye lashes made contact with the surface. He quickly snapped out of it and stepped back to his bed and sat down.

Then again he took a glass of water in his hand and taking a sip drowning back to the same memories. In that crowd he saw a group of people a girl and her parents walking towards him. She then went to one of my friends and spoke for some time. He then introduced her as Jennifer. As they were talking he saw a pleasant view by the end of the street, two puppies playing near the street lamp. With a smile he turned away and started speaking to his friends again. Then he started walking away from that place and was walking towards the street lamp. There he saw a girl having the puppies in her lap and patting them.

She saw a guy coming towards her and acted as though she dint notice him at all. She kept patting the puppies. She saw him standing next to her but did not turn to look at him. His friends came at that time and Jennifer patted her shoulder saying, “hi Janie, seems like the pup craze hasn’t left you yet ei??” Jennifer then introduced the rest of his friends to her and finally him. They both shook hands and the entire area was filling up with light, and a blaring sound filled the air. All of a sudden two beaming lights were in front of her and she jumped out of the way of the truck and realized that dreaming on road was never a part of her plan.

She was confused and really needed him but she tried her best to not to let her memories dominate her mind. She then reached the airport and checked in and saw the time. She still had to spend four full hours fighting her mind. Sitting on a seat nearby, she opened her Mac-book (a laptop). His voice echoed in her mind,”you racist, you even want your laptop to be white ha-ha, come on don’t….” his voice then faded away. She then Shook her head slowly with tears in her eye and continued to stare at her Mac. After a while she decided to delete all his pictures, mails and every other thing related to him.

As she started to delete them she saw something that clouded her completely....

A Boy named ME 2

As she saw him go in to get her bike out, she was looking at the moon. Thinking about all the promises she made. Tears were trickling down her cheek in which the moon was reflected. Still looking up she kept her finger below a leaf which was in a nearby tree. The dew drop on the leaf came on her hand. She carefully lifted it and kissed it as it went into her lips. She kept her hand on the tree as a few drops fell on her but then quickly removed her hand from it. She took a pen from her pocket, a silver colored pen which glittered from the moon light. She looked at it closely it was written JnJ.

Her face was like a damsel, tears rolling down her cheeks, a red nose and a smile spread on her face in the moon light. She reached out for her handbag and kept the pen inside it. She took out a white cloth with silver corners. It was written “Reve dna reve rof evol ym”. She remembered the day he gifted it to her. It was a few seconds on the outside but an eternity inside her mind. She kept it on her face and cried a little more and kissed the cloth and then kept it inside her bag again. She looked up at the moon again and reached her hand out as though she was holding the moon. A mild smile was there on her face. But then the tears started rolling down her fairy white cheeks again. She dint wipe it though. She closed her fists and looked up once again. She heard her scooter’s sound and then cleared her face and stood there with a fake yet a beautiful smile.

He came out and stopped in front of her. He then flashed the head lamps to high beam and then back to low. For that one moment, the glow on her face, the rose cheeks, the fairy white forehead the red lips and her short yet silky hair made her look like a “perfect” girl.Without a word she got on the bike, held his shoulders and they rode off from the place.

They went to all the places they had gone to before. The wonderful beach where they spent really long hours just sitting and staring into each other’s eyes, the ice cream shop which was open 24 x 7 where they would go really late night after a fight, the juice shop which was their favorites just because it was called j and j, the last street in their locality which would be so silent that they could hear their breaths when they walked through them and many more places having memories attached to them

When each place passed by them a special moment would be flashed in front of them. A keychain that she gave him as a valentine gift in the silent street, a waterman fountain pen which he gave her in the beach, their first kiss on New Year’s Eve in the j & j juice shop and many more memories flashed in front of them as they rode all the way in silence. As they feared the vehicle stopped, not because of any problem but because they were back where they started. She reluctantly removed her hand from his shoulder and got off the bike.




That was the final hour. She stood near him and kept her forehead on his head. Partly crying and partly smiling, she gently hit his nose with hers and let go of him. They both stood in absolute silence and then they both were about to start a conversation but neither could start. With one final hug, she started walking away from there. While going away she said.”I will love you forever Jackie, I promise” he could not even breathe, saying something was way ahead of time for him.




She vanished in the fog and he stood there in silence. After a long fifteen minutes of standing alone in the street, he started walking back. He looked up and saw the moon, scared yet beautiful, so bright in the dark sky. Only one thing struck him as he looked at the moon, her memories. It was as though his entire head was stuffed with her memories. And they were all rushing one memory at a time.


to be continued......

A boy named me 1

“I am sorry jack, I really am sorry for everything. Please forgive me if you can because I know it’s impossible but...” Jane falls silent as jack places a finger on her lip. They both stood in front of his house, at two in the morning, she was with the luggage in her hand and, Jack responds quickly,
“Please don’t say that Jane, you know better than me that I am me, only because you were with me”
“Yes, you are sad and depressed and irritated all thanks to me, I have ruined your entire life and now I have to leave”

He dint have an answer and she dint have the courage to speak anymore. A flight passed above them and after that it was absolute silence except for the wind blowing and a song which was mildly audible from jack’s earphones, through his I-Pod. There was silence for a long time and it was getting deeper into the souls, and making the tension thicker. They both were sure that this was over, for good, but they did not want to let that settle in. It was hard but they knew they had to let go. At that instant they both felt something. Some urge that pushed them. There was a thud of bags. A second later they both were in each other’s arms, close and comfortable. Just like how they imagined their life with each other would have been with each other.

Then he kept looking down and tears were flowing from his eyes. She kept her frozen white hands on his cheeks and raised his face. Their eyes met for a second and they came so close that their noses were touching. She then patted his nose with hers and ran her hands through his hair and then joined her forehead with his, and closed her eyes and said “take care Jackie boy. I am going to miss you more than anything in this world.” Saying this she kissed him softly on his lips. He dint move and was still crying.

Then she turned to take her luggage which was around 2 steps from her. While going, she stopped still in the second step. His hand were stretched out and holding hers. He looked up at that instant and from his view she looked like a damsel, dressed in white, under moonlight, face glowing because of tears. He was not all bad himself. Not so fair, long hair which suited his face, tall, athletic, wearing a white t-shirt and black tracks, white earphones around his neck and iPod in his pocket.

He pulled her close to him and said, “You look absolutely angelic in this costume. Can I have one last dance with you?” saying this he went down to his knees and held out his hands. She let go of his hand and turned to pick her bag. Sad and disappointed, he again looked down. Without his knowledge he was still sitting in the same position but a million thoughts were running through his head and the worst part was he did not know which problem to focus on. Then suddenly a hand held his hand, obviously it was her. She said, “How can I say no to you. But how will we dance without music?” He took out his iPod and increased the volume to the maximum. Then he said, “Look into my eyes and don speak, you will love this song.” The song was audible and it was one in a million by Miley Cyrus. Tears filled her eyes as it was one of their most favorite songs. Yet she dint say a word. He held her hips and pulled her close to him. She kept her hands on his shoulder and they both were moving with the music, or rather moving with each other. The street lamp went off suddenly it was the entire moon light, an angel and a guy on the street.

The song ended yet they continued to dance. They knew they had to let go sometime, they just dint know it was going to be so soon. She then hugged him tight and he wrapped his arms around her. Then without a choice she let go of him. She asked him if he could give her one last ride. “Sure, just wait I will go and get my car, give me 15 minutes.” When he walked she held his hands and said, “No Jackie, I meant in my bike.” After a long silence he agreed.

Reluctantly he went into her house and turned on the lights. As he looked around, his mind was clouded with memories, memories of him and her. It was just for a few seconds but a million events flashed in front of him. He reached out for the key on the hanger. When he saw the key-chain, it made his dry lips break into a weak but a happy smile. Slowly he touched the key-chain and moved his hand through it. After a few seconds he took the key from the hanger and turned around.

As he started to walk away he tripped and fell down face first. He hurt his nose and was clenching his nose with one hand and helping himself up with the other. But his eyes caught something under the bed and he stopped still. Heaps of colorful paper stacked up. His heart skipped a beat as he was observing those papers. He stretched his arms to reach them. He was an inch away when he stopped. He waited for a second and dropped his hands, closed his eyes looking down, slowly shook his head and got up. With a million thoughts in his head he started walking towards the door.

His hands were shivering and he was sweating all over. He went into the garage to take the bike. It was brand new as he had gifted to her. Not even one scratch on the sparkling bike. On the side he saw just one small sticker. Again he went near it and touched it. He opened the seat, under it there was a piece of cloth. Smile was even brighter this time on his dark face. Then he closed the seat, put on the keys and started the bike.
To be continued.....

What have i learnt? Lol i have no idea!

30. Deep down we all knew what the joker said from the dark knight was right, "nobody panics when things go according to the plan." a good example, 21/12/2012.

29. When someone is in pain, is hurt or is about to die, its better to be normal with them, no i am not being cinematic. Be normal crack jokes, be stupid and pretend to be a clown. It really makes them feel better than empathizing or being sympathetic about it.

28. I bet even my dog will laugh at me cos none of these realizations will stay with me in the long run but i will definitely absorb some

27. Forgiving someone is divine. Not because of the deed, because of the selfish happiness you get when you truly do it.

26. Only a few people can make you smile in situations of Mind F*** and you are one of those few who can make them smile in A smiliar situation, whats better? You again are one of those who can put them in that situation in the first place.

25. As kamal haasan said in his trailer, "Oru por engae thodanga padugindradu ? oru Punnagai Niragarika padum idathil!" which means "where does the foundation for a war lie? where a smile is refused." Its pretty much true if ya think about it. And don take it in the literal way, its a symbol. 

24. Before you even think of bringing peace to the nation or world, bring peace in your life and your self. That is where it all starts






 

23. There are a huge amount of people who do not understand the difference between keeping a personal opinion and forcing their opinions on you. I know this cos i was one of the later.

 22. Its perfectly okay to be kiddish at times. Only kids know what they are doing and they do what they want to. Adults however do what they need to. and that makes all the frigging difference.

 21. Whenever you hang on to something/someone too much it turns out that you lose that big priority in its/his/her time. when you are too ignorant about something/someone, it/him/her will lose the importance in your life and you become comfortable without it.  Maintaining the right balance in this is like adding salt to your food. you can eat it with more less or no salt at all, but only when there is the right amount you realize how it was meant to be, COMPLETE.


 20. We never actually learn much, because we know many things already, we just realize them slowly

 19. For every guy giving up is the most difficult thing and for every girl giving in to her feeling is the most difficult thing. And when these two come together, that's when it all starts, "macha, i think she is in love with you da" epic statement right?

 18. You always want to do something else than what you are doing presently until you know what you want and end up in it.

17. When you are too self conscious about yourself, you make more mistakes than you usually do.

16. Every parent would want their children to marry a guy/girl of their choice. Just like its not wrong for you to love a person its not wrong of them to say no at first. 








 *** Gets a bit slow and serious after this so if yu re bored, i don care :P read on***

15. While speaking to someone you can easily tell the type of person they are and if you believe them or not. If that person is awesome with speech then he doesn't have to be right for you to believe him

14. You always tend to want to lose your weight but more often than never you want to do it without effort.

13. Your mind always calculates a "death vs survival" ratio when you drive and there are those awesome rare times when you survive when your mind calculates death.

12. You always seem to think a lot while staring at other people

11. Your phone, your Bike, your car and your stuff is always awesome cos its YOURS!

10. Judging people, is one of the most stupid things to do. When you are not good enough a person you cannot judge someone. When you become a good enough person, you wont judge anyone.

9. Expectation is something that is by far the most overrated "in-mind" emotion. if you expect something then go ahead and say it, no one in this world is a mind reader.

8. Possessiveness is one of those feelings that make you walk on razors edge. You just hate it or you just like it but unless the above stated number 9 happens directly, you cannot put a pin on it

7. Putting myself down to make people laugh is one of the nicest things i can do. Because that way they wouldn't tease me at the same time they would laugh an be happy as well(or i hope so).

6. This is for the sarcastic people. ALWAYS PICK YOUR MOMENT!! wrong place wrong time = knife on the neck.

5. Unique, weird, Different are the synonyms of the same word. If someone calls you any of these terms feel proud. He/she s calling you so cos they think you are one of a kind and that's a flawless victory.

4. Maturity is not about doing great things in life its about understanding the smaller things in your an others life.

3. Most guys are a different person with the girl they love and different when they are around friends. That person who they are with the girl, is what they ll be with them for the rest of their life.

2. Driving fast is not the same as driving rash. Its for all the girls to understand as well. If a person goes slow and a truck rams him, what then? if he would have gone faster may be he would have escaped. Scenarios exist. So say drive safe and not drive slow

1. You are the most important person in your life and you are the only person who knows every damn thing about you. Selfish? So what?You can never love someone else more than you can love your self, and if you do love someone else more (or say so) it means you have no respect for yourself, you are just fooling yourself and the girl or you are just plain stupid, none of which are good..

BONUS: When you stop caring about what others think say or do, is when you ll understand what you want to think say or do!

Happy new year people :D

A DAYS NOT(ICE) ENOUGH

I am not that great at writing stories that are entirely fictitious, here is my 1st try. Please give your criticism as comments so that I can improve. Here goes.
This is the monologue of a father Vikram to his 8 month daughter Maaya.

Maaya I miss you so much. You have changed me so much over these days and I thank you for having made me the person I am now. It’s so different and beautiful. I never thought this can be something that could change with me. I still remember fighting with Varsha over your name. It all seems to have happened just now.

It’s amazing that despite being so close to you, I still miss you. I feel that you are holding my finger with your entire hand. You want to know a secret? I have always hated kids. Till I saw you in a sonogram, that was my opinion about kids. Because I always thought that they were a huge responsibility. Also they were always screaming and in constant need for attention. And I frankly felt they were a pain. But the day I saw you in the sonogram holding Varsha’s hands, all of those fears went off in an instant. All we saw was one small spot moving. And I knew at that moment, that something this gorgeous could never be a pain and was worth anything in this world. And I mean ANYTHING.

You know what? I first met Varsha during my 1st year in college. She was wearing a white dress stained with coffee all over. She did not look astoundingly beautiful or anything. But she was something special I knew it that instant. It was not love at first sight, at least not for her. Finally after a week I saw her again. I saw her again in the canteen she was with her friends. I came with my friend. Her name was Shalini. I was with her because that was the start of the college and she was the only one I knew as she was from my school. And she was from ECE department. I asked her who that girl was and she said she had seen her in her class. After a week or something I came to know that her name was varsha. And to my luck she was Shalini’s best friend.

I still remember how I first spoke to her. It was near our college ground Shalini and varsha were walking and I waved from the other side. She signaled that she was leaving in train. At that moment some instinct made me say that I was coming as well. I had a class in the afternoon and it was a practical session. I bunked it and left with them. I said hi to Varsha. That was the first time I spoke to her. Then while in train I found out that we have very few things common. OK just two and that was that we both hate chocolates. Shalini got down at her stop. I and varsha were still traveling and she got down in my stop (WOW was my minds voice)she stayed like 10 minutes away from my place. And so it began, we became good friends and then great friends.

We started going to places, like if she wanted to get something from the mart or something like that she would call me since I was nearby her house. I used to walk her to her house every day from the station. And on purpose we started taking the long route. My parents already liked her a lot and so did her parents like me. And by the final year we became really close to each other. There was one day when she was sitting in the station alone and crying because she had failed in one of her semester exams. I came late because I was waiting for a chance to play table tennis but ever got the chance. I went up to her and sat down near her and said “you know you look damn good when you cry”. She lifted her head. I said okay “maybe I was wrong” and smiled. She then wiped her tears and spoke to me and we were speaking everything under the sun. Then we saw the time it was 11 o clocks. She checked her mobile and saw 26 missed calls and 21 new messages. No wonder we dint see any train for a long time now. She called up her parents and informed that she was late because she had fainted etc. Then we decided to take a bus and right when we were about to start there was a train. Thank god the last train was late She said that I made her really happy and thanked me. I walked with her to her house and then reached home.

Things were going great between us and already people had started teasing us. Actually I was feeling happy about that. One day I said I had met with an accident and I was in bed in my house. She came running and found the house locked. There was a note and it was written “IF IT’S VARSHA COME UPSTAIRS, ANYONE ELSE ALSO COME UPSTAIRS”. She came up running and opened the door and saw a dark room just one small burning lamp. There was a note below the lamp which said “go to the next room”. Then she went to the next room and found room full of balloons and all of them were heart shaped balloons. There were so many balloons that when she opened the door all of them came pouring out. She kept calling to my mobile this whole time but I did not pick it up. Then finally she saw a not stuck on the window saying “OPEN THE NEXT DOOR” and then when she opened that door then to her surprise she found a vanilla cake surrounded by candles alone in which it was written “WANNA GIVE “US” A TRY”. She was standing still there. I was on the other side of the door waiting for her to turn but she never did. I could see the side of her face glowing with the candle light. I thought she was looking down and messaging me. But she was wiping her eyes and turned and was shocked to find me standing there. She came close to me and whispered in my ears something that drove me crazy. I was so shocked to hear that. She said “BEFORE I SAY ANYTHING, I JUST WANNA SAY THAT YOUR ZIP IS OPEN”. Then she held my hand and dragged me near to her and said “YES I WOULD LOVE TO TORTURE YOU FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE”. The rest is history. It was hard getting out parents’ consent since I was a topper and she had difficulty in clearing her exams which eventually she did with a lot of help. After a long wait our parents accepted and we were MARRIED.

We both agreed that we did not want babies earlier so we decided to push that a bit towards the future. We were living our life to the fullest and were so much in love. After a year or so varsha was pregnant. We both were so happy that she was pregnant and we were going to have a baby. We were so happy and the whole world’s happiness was inside our heart. Then we decided not to invite one of our friends and she said that we should invite despite the cold war. After a while of argument I said, “OK HONEY, YOU WIN BUT YOU WILL HAVE TO INVITE HIM” She agreed and left to invite him. She said she would take the car. She left in the car while I waved her bye through the window.

Little did I know that it was the last time I would be seeing her. After half an hour of her departure I got a call from an anonymous number. When I answered it a lady’s voice spoke, “Sir is this Vikram?”
“Yes I am Vikram speaking, who is this?”
“Sir this is Dr.Shekar from AM hospital, your wife has met with an accident and we would like you to come over immediately”
“Is she ok? IS SHE OK?"

"sir she is fine please get over here as soon as possible"
My face was sweating and my hands were shivering. I dint have a clue what to do just as face is wet with tears now. I started in my bike and went there really fast but it was too late. She was gone. Varsha was history. Now I am seeing the cradle and I am speaking to just the pillows, the cradle is as empty as my life. Because you were still in her and she was still pregnant. Though I am left alone I still have your memories to live with. Love you a lot and I miss you a lot Maaya.